waves waves waves

i always try to make it out to the beach while we're in michigan. and this year, without any snow, the beach was superb for visiting.

while sitting on the beach listening to the waves, i remembered why that place was so hard for me to leave 8 years ago to come to minnesota. when i'm near the lake, my mind sort of empties out of all the rifraff, and i get a certain clarity that doesn't come very easily when i'm away from nature.

the waves said two things to me:
1. in your head, you keep referring to some of the decisions you've made in the last few years as 'mistakes'. you hate that word, and you know it's not right, but you keep using it on yourself. let go of that word and the judgment that goes along with it. give yourself permission to live.

2. please don't forget how important this nature thing is to you. when you sit in your wonderful house that you love, you think you can get the serenity that you get in nature, but you can't. seek out more nature. spend more time finding it, even if it's just at the park down the street. nature is a great listener.



i know the waves said some other things to me too, but these were the main themes.