kickball captains

aaron and i decided after four season's of coaching our kickball team that we'd like to hand that honor off to the next captain(s). i'm a bit sad and relieved all at the same time. also a bit worried.

sad
hm. well, i've really enjoyed the opportuntities and obligations that go along with leading a group of people for a common goal. i guess that's why i do what i do for a job. and i'm sad to be leaving that behind because there has been lots about it that i've loved.

relieved
to just think of going to play kickball without all the related responsibilities seems like a dream to me. i won't have to:
get all the money together and worry about doing it before the good nights fill up
take all the shit for the name of the team and the color of the shirts when i couldn't make everyone happy
get the t-shirts and hand them out to the right people and get extra's for late joiners
be the first to show up to the field
do the reauchambeau and potentially lose and let the team down
listen to all the suggestions from the team about how to run the team and feel inadequate
worry about whether we'll have enough people to play
feel let down when people don't finish the season
feel like everyone is disappointed in our captaining approach, even though we try so hard

worried
yep, another list makes sense here. worried that:
the kickball ideals that we believe in will cease to be as important (it's only a game, everyone should get to try out the different positions, don't treat other players/teams badly, people can mess up and that's part of the fun)
i won't be very good at not being the leader (keep my nose out of it)
without as much experience, the new captain(s) won't know what to avoid/embrace about everything
i won't be there to make sure everything goes smooth, so we won't get a good night or enough people to play
no one will take the captain job from us and we will either have to beg someone, or disband. =(

okay, this isn't a very positive post, but i suppose i knew that going into it. i just have to remember, it's just kickball. babies aren't dying. and however it works out will be just fine, even if it doesn't work out at all.

thanks to all the teams we've captained for letting us lead. i really loved it.

long live the colonel!